Damn. I just have no luck with doing what I want to do. I've been waiting ever so patiently to get time alone so I can do a little self photography and what happens? Everything goes to hell in a hand basket. Well, not everything. I do have a nice little area where I can set up my stuff, I got a couple of big sheets of construction paper for a background, I got a nice big lamp for lighting and the whole nine yards but the only problem is... I have pimples on my damn face out of no where! Which sucks because I have no cover up or any other kind of make-up and if I did, I don't know how to use it to begin with. So, I get delayed on what I wanted to do which was a series of pictures of myself doing different kinds of facial expressions. I've been bouncing it around in my head for a while now, finally get down to try it... pimples.

Oh well. I wait until tomorrow and see if my face is more cleared up then.

Hi... been a long while again, huh? Yeah...

What to say, what to say. Well, after a long time of sitting here complaining of I want to write something, I'm attempting to write right now but it's slow to produce, slower then usual. I had an idea, then it changed into another idea, now I'm fighting between two ideas and trying to see if I can interweave the two of them. If I do that it would be stupid because they're about two complete different things and both of them can develope into something more.

But the funny thing is the story I'm trying to do now is actually more or less a twist of what I originally wanted to do and that was a post-apocalyptic war story between the human race and an invading army of Predators. You know... Predators. Like with Teh Guvenator and Danny Glover... Oh and with those 2 shitty AvP movies. Jesus Humping Christ did they ever screw up that cash franchise. I swear I could of made a damn good script if they gave me the chance. Seriously, how does one screw up something so easy as Alien vs Predator when they had tons of books out there to pull from. But what does Hollywood do? Screw it up. Seriously... I mean seriously is Hollywood even trying anymore? Spit out 2-3 good movies a year then the rest are remakes or something Movie Execs wipe their asses with. Wrong move number one: they did was base it in present time. Wrong move number two: they put the setting on Earth. Wrong step number three: Just everything else. The Alien and the Predator franchise both have deep mythos to pull from and they already had cross overs in books, comic books and video games...

Ok, I'm done with that. I can go on with that for days, but more or less I'd be repeating myself with just different words.

So. Uh. Writing - Trying. Job - Not yet... shut up... I'm worthless, what can I say? There's big to do's probably coming up, I might be moving to a bigger town (Sacramento) soon. Maybe, just maybe I'll get the spine to actually get a job. Once I do, put some cash in the bank and in my pocket, I'll be looking for homes in Viriginia. Just saying. But first I gotta write again.

Well, it's been a while hasn't it? To the 2 people that still read my stories, thank you. I greatly appreciate you guys. New things to post about, hmmm. I got my driver's liscense, I recently turn 24 and I've been applying for jobs. A whole lot of stuff in a short amount of time. Scary stuff, for me at least. I'm a very shy person and don't enteract with society well. Hopefully I'll get a job and be able to pay for the stuff I actually want to do creatively besides writing.

I don't know what else to put. Oh and I'm sick... again. I can't seem to stay healthy this year.

Oh yes, I am back for at least now. Who knows how long I'll take to get to writing another story! Enjoy it while it lasts, I got another erotic story to share for you all. I should do this more often, I don't know why I don't. Laziness? Lack of a good story? I think it's more along the lines of laziness. I should really start getting more active with the ideas in my head.

Also I've been trying to read more books. I finally finished one yesterday, first one since... uh... 10 years ago? I tried reading Red Dragon, then A Scanner Darkly but I never got around to finishing them because I tend to let my mind drift into fantasy, which causes me to have to reread the same part about 10 times. Makes me frustrated so I put the book away. Anyways, the book I read was Skin by Ted Dekker. It wasn't that bad, though kind of tedious to read. I could of definately cut the fat of the story that wasn't really interesting. There was 3 characters out of the 6 that the story revolved around that I found interesting. Colt, Wendy and Nicole... the rest was just eh. Though that was the reason for most of the book was the interaction with Colt, Wendy and Nicole the rest were just there. It's a revenge story though the twists weren't really that interesting to care about. It started off good, but the middle just faded away and then the ending picked up the spare. If I was going to rate it, more then likely it'll be a 3 out of 5, average. I got it because it was in the cheapy bin at Barnes and Noble, same with the other book I just got called Shadow Man by Cody McFadyen. Hopefully it's good.

I finally submitted a picture! I hope you like it, I think its a very nice shot for a first timer. I got myself a new digital camera for Christmas like I was hoping, it's a Kodak Easyshare C613. Nothing professional, but it's still a nice little handy camera. It gets the job done and I like it none the less. I really do want to get started on the self photography, but at the moment I can't set up anything I want to do, which is mainly get a white backdrop put up. I'm not in my own house and I'm not going to ruin someone else's house, so I'm going to have to wait a little bit longer.

So, I'm out of my house and living with my sister right now. I feel like a worthless bum, well that's because I am but that's beside the point, but I'm trying to make myself change for the better. Gotta get back on the diet, get back to working out and gain some god damn self-confidence. I gotta learn to be able to stand on my own finally, I'm 23 and I can't live under the watchful eye of my parents anymore. It's hard when you've been spoiled for 18 years, have everything done for you and then when it comes time for you to get a job, move out on your own... everyone looks at you like 'Why aren't you doing the things you should be doing?' Well, I can't when I've had everything given to/done for me, I was taught the things I needed to know. I'm shy, scared and unsure of the world like a baby deer would be without it's mother.

Anyways I could go on for days about that, I know what my problem is... I just don't know how to fix it. Just enjoy the picture I submitted, and give some props if you could if you like it.